Past few day's I've been thinking alot of negative things. I've been searching for reasons to avoid the truth, of who I really am.
I'm not famous, not successful, not married, not old, not young, not beautiful, not ugly, not a girl, not yet a woman.
But I AM a Mother, a daughter, someone who is loved, I am ME.
I tend to wake up each morning and ask; "World where are you going to kick me today?" I seem to handle the negative easier then. Why? Not even I can answer that.
I'm not famous, no I'm not. But someday I will be. Not to society, or the world. But to the people who love me. To my Son. I already have all the fame and fortune I need! My 4 year old son, and the Wimpie and Rudi. They love me, no matter who I am, or what I've done. Therefor I AM FAMOUS!
I'm not successful, YET. I have dreams and goals, and even if it takes me a while to reach them. I'll get there.
I'm not married & happily inlove. I notice everybody getting married and I wonder if that will ever be me? Will I ever find the love I deserve? Yes, I will. All in good time, I have so much still to sort out in my life. Love will happened when I'm ready. Right now, I'm just not stable enough. I accept that!!
I'm not old, I'm 22 years old. I've been through a lot, but I'm still only a young adult, trying to find her way. Give me a break World!
I'm not young, age is only a number. I get that. And I had to mature at the age of 17 when I fell pregnant. So I know enough in life. I'm mature, even if I'm only 22.
I'm not beautiful, I might not look like the model on the cover of the Cosmo. But I'm fine with that! In the eyes of my son, I'm more unique than any other!!
My smile hides alot of pain, dissapointment and secrets. But my smile also holds happiness, dreams and love.
I was reminded yesterday, I'm only 22. I still have my whole life ahead of me to become the woman I want to be. Find my true love.
But for now, this girl with the broken smile is living life.
XoXo
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