The Hardest Thing I've Ever Done.

I never knew the hardest day would be the day I finally got over you. And today is that day. Many may have have thought that it had happened ages ago. But secretly I was still holding on. But the longer I held on, the harder waking up each day became.

I just caught myself crying, because of memories and moments we shared. But all I wish is that it didn't have to make me feel so sad. Only then I noticed, it wasn't tears of pain. It was tears of joy, knowing I'll be making new memories again.

We're all afraid of being alone. It's part of the way God created us. But I don't want to be that girl who can't be comfortable on her own! Because we all know, until the day you can be alone and happy. You aren't ready to be with someone else.

Have you ever noticed how much truth you find in silence? When you are sitting all alone, it's only then when you notice what you have become. I was always afraid to dream, because dreams led to expectations which then led to failures. But no matter how many times I fail. I still have the right to dream.

I'm not the girl with the broken smile anymore. I'm the girl with the perfect heart, waiting. Not for Prince Charming, my life isn't a fairytale. I'm waiting for the day that I give it to away, and know it will be safe! But until that day, I'll guard my perfect heart and pray that he'll come and save it one day.

I've been dreaming about this day for the past 9 months, where I would smile and say I'll be okay. I miss you, it's human. I hate you, but I forgive you. I love you, because we share a child together. I dislike you, because you tore out my heart. But I find my peace in this; after everything you did to me, I can still smile and be happy.

Life is to short for me to hold a grudge. So I'm forgiving you. Not for you or her. But for me and my son. Everybody says forgive and forget. But we all know the forgetting part is a little bit too hard.

Today marks a new day for my future. I'm over you. I wish you all the happiness you can find! Because I'm not going to waste another minute finding mine! You always used to say, that not everybody will stay together forever. I didn't want to believe it. But now after everything I've been through. Losing you just proved to me, I'm stronger than you'll ever be!

The Hardest thing I've ever done, was admitting to myself that I'm Over You.

XoXo